Two weeks ago I was blessed by the grace of God to be able to go to the Aquarium of the Pacific for the first time. I took a few photos and I embraced the whole trip. I loved being amongst all of these sea creatures and life. There was something about this place that makes you feel so full of life. Which is definitely why I want to go back very soon!
But in the mean time I am going to look back at some of the few photos I took and remember the really neat memories I created on that special day.
Last Saturday I had the opportunity to attend one of my good friends son’s birthday party. It was such a beautiful day. I was honored to photograph their special day.
Here’s to first birthdays.
Happy Birthday, Austin.
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking during this time of my unemployment. I’ve been thinking about the person that I am now and the person that I was before all of the things that complicated my life. I just feel so lost. Honestly, I have never felt so lost in my entire life. I sit around thinking to myself “what am I doing?” I have never felt like this before. Everything has changed and I feel so lost and alone.
When I was working with the company Autism Behavior Consultants I think I created a comfort blanket and I hid behind that. I was so comfortable behind both that and my marriage. I’m still married but I feel all the complications even more so because at the same time I feel lost. I look myself in the mirror and I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore. I think I need to gain back the structure I once had. I need the discipline I once had. When I was younger I had this undying respect for myself. I was pretty fun to be around. As I’ve grown older I’ve grown more separated and distant.
I’ve been working on both my physical self to get back in shape and my mental self to also get back in shape. It just all feels so hard. It feels incredibly difficult. Although I am married, I still often times feel alone. My marriage is tainted and I don’t know how to fix it. All of these things play such a role on how I view or see myself.
Today I decided to spend some time alone and just listen to music. I decided to play WIlde Belle for an hour and just try to get back to my roots. I used to be the person who people would admire for both my style and musical taste. I used to be so strong and personable. I’m not those things anymore. But I want all of that back. I am working on getting it all back.
For today’s song choice I am going to choose Wild Belle and their song “It’s too late” only because it never is.
Am I the only person in the world who till this day has not given up on The Unicorns? I feel like I am the only person who still listens to their music. I remember seeing them play at the house of blues in 2004 with my friend jessica. I was busy texting this guy I liked while dancing to their music. The Unicorns opened for Ben Kweller that day. This was the day that Ben Kweller was watching their set while standing next to me. I didn’t even realize until he started walking away. He had looked familiar to me but when I saw him on stage I knew that was him. Anyways, I can’t let go of the fact that these guys broke up.
If you’re interested still somehow and magically in watching part of the unicorns come back to life for a free show visit www.amoeba.com their side band Islands will be playing a free show in September.
Until then lets just try to keep the dream alive and not forget the “tuff ghost” in our lives.
I love Justin Timberlake. I didn’t like him so much when I was growing up. I used to be a member of the Backstreet Boys fan club and everyone knows that you couldn’t like both the Backstreet Boys & Nysnc at the same time. As a teenager you had to choose. It was the norm. So I did.
But as I grew older my taste in music changed and I grew up and I started to like different music. I started to dabble in hip hop, some spanish rock, cumbia’s among other genres. But today I just wanted to post a really sweet treat.
When artist like Justin Timberlake sing oldies there is always something sweet in the air. So for today as I lay here sick in bed I just want to enjoy Justin sing a classic.
"Sitting on the dock of the bay" originally performed by Ottis Redding.